This is going to be a downer post. I might as well warn you ahead of time. It's 3 weeks into the year and already I feel like I'm drowning. It could be that I'm in charge of 7 periods out of 8 periods a day. That 2 of my classes are double-duty and one might be a triple here in the near future. I have one conference period to take care of these classes. I teach 2 different subjects right now, but my main focus is math. It wouldn't be so bad if I was teaching business or something since that's what I got a master's in, but I'm teaching Yearbook, all the HS math (Alg1, Geo, Alg2, Math Models, and Pre-Cal) and then this year I picked up Theater Arts. Two periods of the day, I am teaching two different subjects (Yearbook and Math Models the same period with Alg2/Pre-Cal). Its a bit overwhelming and I dont mean to just dump on you... but I kind of need to spill. I do my best to not whine at home cause I know they dont want to hear it, plus theres the whole privacy thing that I dont want to mess with. So day after day, I sit here wondering how it is possible that I am supposed to handle this situation and still be able to do my best. This year I really wanted to try Interactive Notebooking. I felt like last year, I didn't do very well and this year, I wanted to do better. In some classes, its working, in others, I'm over my head. Luckily, Alg1 is the only testable class, but I still need to focus on making things better in there. I need to be farther than I am now. We are behind and its because of something I can't seem to get right. Little frustrating. The rest of the classes, its like pulling teeth to get them to do anything. Its as though the honeymoon period has come and gone even faster than previous years. Top it off with the fact that I had a parent today tell me how her child did on a make-up state test, when I should have already had that information so I end up looking like a jackass. Is there a plan in place to help her child? The hell if I know. Its not my call, and yet, when things get dirty, it will be all my fault. Nevermind that there are years of catchup for this kid to do. Nevermind that I suggested getting some tutoring software. It will fall in my lap and I will get the blame and then be reminded at each meeting, despite everything I do.
You see where I'm sitting at? It wouldn't be so hard to take, if I knew that I had my superiors looking out for me. If I knew that my opinion mattered. It doesn't or half my problem would be taken care of already (or at least part of it and I wouldn't be teaching a dual Alg2/Pre-Cal class).
Anyway. Its getting late. I think my yearbook stuff is handled. I probably need to look over lessons once more but its time to get rest. Early mornings come early and there are not enough hours in the day.
Sorry to whine and complain. Things will be better once I get into a decent routine and things will be ok. I just need things to get better, sooner. All right. I hope this blog entry finds you doing better than me. Have a good night. :)
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